Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches
It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid stabs, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches often start with intense pain behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.
About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.
Ancient healing records suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.
In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.
National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a